a night out with Je.sse

**Sigh** I thought that I would be eligible for a Platinum Oldgirl card in about a year or 2, but after last night, my application would be denied...in fact, I don't even think that the Oldgirl Board of Directors would even deliberate as long as Tyra and 'em on ANTM. So my blog sistas that can read in between the lines and know what I'm saying, good! I would rather blog this out here than have the situation show up in my inbox come Monday morning...and you know why.

So last night, I went out with Unc.le Jes.se. That tag is actually quite fitting b/c dude is rather fussy about his hair....but let me just call him Jes.se before people think that I have some inappropriate relationship with my uncle. Quick rundown...he's white, 43 y/o, works with me, AND he DOES have great hair. He was a part of the group that took me out to lunch, almost a year ago, to welcome me to the new gig. I remember being somewhat attracted to him then, but I was still digging Choir Boy at the time so anyone else was left standing in his shadow. Anyway, we would talk for a few when we ran into each other in the hall, or eat lunch together from time to time, but it wasn't until our company picnic at a local theme park that I first noticed that he was giving me a little rhythm. I was SUPPOSED to be running with Pro-mance, but since I had JJ, I was rather limited as to what rides I could get on. Considering that Jes.se has a 14 y/o kid, I guess that I won both his sympathy and his escort service for the remainder of the day. What I liked about him THEN was the fact that he kept trying to come up with activities that J could participate in...and he would get pretty excited in the process. He kept complimenting ME on how cute and well-mannered JJ was. I always feel those that walk in the truth, lol.

After that, I would find random treats on my desk. And then when my hard drive crashed this week, he lent me his cube for the whole day, since he had class. I left him a couple of notes thanking him, b/c I had a project due yesterday and every bit of computer time that I could steal counted. When I visited his cube after that, I noticed that those notes were moved to a highly visible spot...I guess that he appreciated them.

Well last night, Jes.se, JJ, and I grabbed some Mex.ican food. His son was going to be at a Hallo.ween party until 7:00 pm, so the plan was to get MY son from afterschool care and for all of us to have dinner and perhaps watch a movie. It was almost weird b/c he wanted to ride with me to pick JJ up...and then asked if he could go in with me to get him. I don't know why, but I quickly let him know that he can stay in the car and I would be right out. When JJ got in the car, dude was almost playing 20 questions with him. JJ remembered him from the park, but he still gets in shy mode and takes time to warm up to people. It was cute, nonetheless.

We had dinner. We picked up his son afterwards. And then, I dropped him back off at the office to pick up his truck and followed him to their crib....waaaayyyyy across town....in the dark and the pouring rain. Now, b/c of the matching speeding tickets that I got last weekend on my way to and from Char.lotte, a homie is a bit cautious about driving on unfamiliar territory...especially in the dark and the pouring rain. By the grace of God and CERTAINLY NOT my contacts, we made it to his country place that happens to be tucked off and near a pond.

JJ and his son immediately hit it off and were playing computer games while Jes.se and I took to the couch and a couple of movies. Dude has about 5 or 6 cats and all of them seemed to love me...I think one may have even made love to my thigh, b/c all I know is he rubbed himself to sleep in my lap. I WISH that I could say that that was the most action that I had gotten all night. Jes.se then put in a movie that he thought JJ would enjoy, but that boy didn't last 20 minutes before he was all curled up on the recliner, slobbering on the fabric. By this time, I knew that I should've been long gone, but I was kinda scared to drive down those dark roads at night. Plus, Jes.se insisted that I just wait until the morning...not a surprise at all. So he put JJ to bed in his spare bedroom...and Jes.se and I got to know each other a bit better.

He's a great kisser, I LOVE running my fingers through his hair, but er...uh...HOW IN THE HECK AM I GOING TO FACE THIS DUDE ON MONDAY??? I got caught up in the moment. There are other things about him that concern me...that I MAY disclose at a later date. But I can't lie, it felt good to have his arms around me...squeezing and carressing me. I melted everytime that he kissed my forehead...yearned for the next moment of sensual spontaneity, but we work together. I brought it up in the midst and all he could say was, "Well, it sux when you give almost all of your time to a job...and then come across someone that you like and feel as if you're not supposed to see them." Yes, there are good reasons why you're NOT...too bad all 500 of them didn't force my hand sooner. I don't really even know what to think, how to feel...something other than fear, or what to do.

Thankfully, I'm in a dodgeball tourney today, so I have an opportunity to sharpen my ducking and dodging skills in the meantime.